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2010 so far…

My Cleanse: I’ve gotten to that point in the cleanse where everything is coming up. My skin was extra itchy for several days and now I’m blowing my nose constantly. It feels good because I am giving my body a chance to clean itself from the inside out, anything that might have been clinging to me all this time is losing a foothold, and with a lot of water and patience it will all have to disappear. It’s exciting.

The first time I did a cleanse, I held on for seven weeks and I felt amazing afterwards. People still comment on how healthy and vibrant I seemed. Of course they hasten to try and reassure me that I don’t look unhealthy or anything now, but I understand. I can feel the difference inside myself. I realize through this process how sluggish I’ve become, how used to being weighed down I am. Slowly I’m letting all that stuff float up and away.

Less time on twitter/facebook: I take my social networking time in short little bursts. Once or twice a day, usually in the “off” hours (6am, 3am), I will log on and interact with my peoples. The rest of the time I harness the energy and channel it towards my notebook or reading. Sometimes those thoughts will still make it onto twitter, but sometimes it just doesn’t seem important enough to share. It’s forcing me to really temper my words and realize that it’s not necessary to share ALL my thoughts. Liberating.

Daily Mediation: Fabulous. I read a passage from my Vanzant book every day. I also experiment with chanting, using Om (which I pronounce A-U-Mmmmm) and a sanskrit phrase from my Deepak Chopra book (there’s a different phrase every day). I’m still not sure what I’m doing sometimes, and it can feel silly. Other times, I will be lying in bed, drifting off and I will recall a sound from mediation and repeat it over and over in my head and it will bring me peace. There are occasional 1 second bursts of clarity, too quick for me to grasp and hold onto, but they give me hope because I know that they are there.

Daily Yoga: I try to start my day with a sun salutation sequence, and then I will grab a few of the poses from Bikram and do those as well. I keep forgetting to do Shavasana or Dead Man’s Pose, which I have been taught is necessary in all yoga practice. I figure I will get there eventually. At least I’m moving and getting my blood flowing. I feel the strength returning to my arms, it’s all the Downward Dogs that I have been doing! LOL

Writing Journey: I have started a new journal for the new year. Although I have developed a habit of writing everyday, it hasn’t been journaling, something that I have done since I was in the second grade. When I look back I find it strange that I went 1 year without keeping a diary. My last diary was full of so much sadness that I questioned the wisdom of holding onto these memories so tightly. Maybe we aren’t meant to record these things, maybe we are meant to forget, to let things go?

But in all things I am a writer, and it is easier to process my thoughts when I am trying to organize them so that they can be recorded. Also, I realize that I have been denying myself a certain amount of alertness about the circumstances in my life by not reviewing and recording them. Lastly, how will I ever write a proper memoir if I don’t review my day/week/month and write it down? LOL
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